New Ship Is Already Sailing

See, I told you before. I put better words in Engrisshh no matter how broken it is. :-)

I have moved! To the new house I mentioned previously in my post. We got into this new ship on 1st October and now we're into 2 weeks of sailing. The captain and sailors are all the same only the ship is better. And I love my new house totally! Who don't if it's your very own house? See, one of my junior sailors is still on the verge of understanding what the heck we're all doing there.

I don't do so much with my new house. Only buying new furniture just to fill those empty space. Ahhh.. what a brilliant excuse to spend your money. Those brownish curtain, I bought it few months back. It never cross my mind what theme we're gonna choose. But, brown @ earth color is picked just to be on the safe side. On my part, I think it's pretty match. Ohh...the red basket? It's just a coincidence. Not in my plan.

 The floor is broken marble as it's already nice for my point of view. I just need rugs on top of that. Few weeks before, I draft two theme for furniture-wise. One is red,white & black. The other was grey-white. I loved the grey-white more but turned out the theme was over-budget so we decided to go for red-white-black. Pretty-well for amateur like us! Please don't compare us with Eric Leong. Forgive me for this pic. I don't blame the lil cutie pie. Just the pink bag and diapers bag tagged in the pic. They are flaws.

Spot the white wall cabinet? The previous owner left for us. We didnt' have any idea on what to put inside the cabinet. End up, we put all our belongings like spectacles, keys, watch, bangle inside. Hahaha... shame on us. And next to the sliding door is my wall-shelve from Ikea that I love most! They also have in red and white but those colors are sold out. No stock. Luckily, we picked the right color. Black is always match with anything. All books on the shelf, they're mostly mine. You want to borrow? Over my dead body first. Hahaha... We bought the painting above the sofabed few years back. It's quite sentimental value and yet cheaper.

Tadaaa...the dining hall. Simple maa... The dining set only costs us around RM315 altogether. The rug also from Ikea. I don't want the set on bare floor. So, this rug is just nice. And don't forget cheap!

My lovely kitchen is just the same. Only that, the top were filled with my stuff. Newbies are Panasonic flusk from Tesco and wine rack which I bought also at Ikea. The first day we moved, our old flusk gone kaput. Shit....out of many days, it wanted to kaput on our moving day. Having a baby who drink formulated drink, you need to always have hot/warm water. So, the Panasonic one cost me a RM169 only for 3 liters capacity. Expensive huh? But the good part is, the charcoal wall inside the flusk definitely worth buying. My tea and coffee are tastier than before. And some more, you can clean the flusk by pressing the cleaning button for 3 seconds. I haven't tried it yet because it's still new and clean! As for wine rack, I fell in love with it for an excuse to stock up my warm water in bottles. They look nice on the top...You can buy one. It's only RM49.

The most expensive one we bought from Ikea is this Klippan two-seater sofa in Granan Red. Actually, 3 medium size person can seat on this sofa which made me proud to get this one. At first, I crazily wanted to buy the polka-dot (red-white) also from Klippan, but as it new in store, it's much expensive than this one. But, it's ok I'm happy. I like simplicity and this pic define me.

I haven't have pictures of upper-floor. They are just bedrooms and all that. Nothing much to show. Floors are all timber-flooring and I don't have to add up anything. Probably later on when we have enough budget, I'll look into PAX-system for wardrobe from Ikea as well as bedroom set for our kiddos. :-D

I'm more happier than before!

New Role

Hectic! Itu saja yg boleh aku describe pasal 2-3 bulan kebelakangan ini. Eh tetiba post BM. Ok gak sbb skrg tengah mood raya. Takde selera nak berbahasa Inggrishh... Penat wei balik kg beraya wpun seronok sakan. 3-4 jam jugak perjalanan dengan kereta yg tak berapa nak vroomm..lgpun husband aku ni x brp suka memandu laju. bahaya katanya. betul tu...biarlah berhemah! asal selamat! Kami gerak dr Melawati ari sabtu malam pkl 11, sampai di Penang 4 pagi. Syukur perjalanan lancar. Takde tersengguk2. Cuma aku je yg kot yg sengguk menahan kemengantukan. Biarlah cik abe yg mjlankan kewajipan memandu.

Sbnrnya post aku selain nak bcerita pasal hari raya, aku jgk nak mengomel pasal jawatan baru aku. Bila bos2 wat keputusan nak bukak francais Tutti Frutti (TF) pada bln Mei 2011, mmg nama aku disebut2 gak utk jadi PIC bakal kedai TF tu. Disebabkan TF ni la, ofis kami pun akan berpindah ke Cheras. then bila renovation dah start, bos sound you kena jaga nanti kedai ni Fiza. Aku  memula cam terkujat gak. Erkk? biar betik... aku mmg zero experience bab2 retail shop ni. Ada la sket2 ilmu tp bukan secara langsung. Kira cabaran gak ni. Aku ingat bos main2 tp sbnrnya mmg betul. Dup dap dup dap jantung memikio tentang tanggungjawab. Bkn apa, bos ada retail shop sebelum ni. And manager shop tu pun kira kenal2 gak. background engineer tapi quite hampes gak wat keje. So, kalau boleh aku tak nak lah jadi macam tu. Malu wei... Insya Allah akan ku cuba menjalankan tanggungjawab yg diamanahkan dgn sebaik2nya. Aminn...

By the time aku tulis post ni pun dah bulan 10. Ngeh ngeh ngeh...dah hampir 3 bulan lebih TF beroperasi. Tgk pada prestasi, mmg fenomena betul. Aku sendiri pun mcm addicted tp sonok wei sebab staff ada everyday meal. Yumyum...sampai kadang2 tak lalu nak makan. :-D Overall, mmg aku rasa ok kot boss pun takde komplen sgt. Everything is under control. Krew pun nasib baik dpt yg ok. Ada flaws sikit2 here and there pun xper, as long as diorang loyal and boleh buat keje. Dah cukup baik la tu! Aku pun dah tak byk sgt turun2 since tgk bebudak tu dah boleh run sendiri. In term of cash monitoring and other than that, boleh nampak mcm takde masalah. Short sket2 2-3 hengget tu aku suruh je dorang topupkan. Jangan tidak jer... TF ni pun dah ada byk regulars. Aku pun ada kenal few yg selalu datang. In fact, bila ada hal jer bebudak ni soh refer manager. Adehhh....manager la sgt. Kui kui kui...and biasanya ada issue2 kecik ni aku suroh dorang handle jer. Cuma isu yg besar sket yg melibatkan decision making mmg aku take over la. Alhamdulilah so far mmg tak de komplen dr pihak customers. In fact, ada yg puas hati dgn tekstur yogurt kami. Sbb aku pun bgtau krew ikut resipi je, jangan memandai ubah. Aku dah malas nak rasa2 dah sbb diorang pun mmg ikut resipi asal. So oklah...

Lagipun other than being in manager role, aku byk lagi benda nak buat kat office. Multitasker la katakan... Admin/secretarial stuff still aku manage.. Nak update/report sale/mesyuarat & minitnya/surat2/ lesen2 perniagaan dan segala mak nenek lesen/AP semua aku buat. kekadang aku jugak merangkap receptionist kalau dia cuti. Oklah...one of PABX phone mmg ada kat tempat aku. So no worry setakat nak tekan butang kecik and buat suara gediks menjawab telefon. Ahakss...bukan perasan tp suara ku mmg ada yg puji sedap! Belum tengok orgnya lagi...huahuahua.  Cuma tang nak buat pintu aku kena berlari2 anak sket. mcm exercise la kira tp tak kurus2 jugak. Hampeh betoi! Kalau korang tgk meja aku humang aih bersepah mcm workloads dah dapat untuk upfront 10 years punya. Wakaka...sbnrnya aku mmg jenis bekerja bersepah meja. Sbb aku tau mcm mana aku keja so kalau ada org ubah, mmg nak kena la! Carik nahas...tp ada jugak time yg bila kemas, perghhh...cleaner pun takut tgk meja aku! And tahun ni mmg gempak sebab personal stuff mcm lotion, perfume, bedak bayi, deodorant, krim tumit pecah2 pun aku stock up atas meja. Siap ada tabung siling lagi. Hebat2...tp aku jarang capai pun benda2 tu. Konon nak menjaga kulit dan penampilan. Cettt...tak sempat pun. Aku lebih byk mencapai pen, stapler, kertas2 kerja dan telefon atas meja. Paling byk jari aku digunakan atas keyboard la. Facebook, email, blog...muahaha. Eh takdelah, aku bukan peminat tegar FB wpun aku rajin update. FB org lain aku jarang tengok. Yg mana rapat2 jer...kadang2 boring gak FB ni. Mcm tu je...cuma mark zukeberg tu sekali2 tuko setting la, appearance la. layan je la kan...dulu aku rajin layan games segala2 ville. Farmville, citiville, ntah ape2 lagi...skrg sorrylah buang masa aku je! Benda tu leh wat org addicted sbb mcm tak puas2 nak upgrade prestasi dorang. Penat wei nak racing ngan org lain. Buat pagar la, beli ayam la, beli bangunan la! Tak kuasa aku nak layan...

Ni pun sebenarnya ada benda nak buat. 2 minit mesuarat menanti utk ditaip. Friday ni nak meeting, br terhegeh2 nak buat minit yg lepas. Padahal aritu meeting awal bulan 9. Tak sempat beb..ingat senang ke nak wat minit ni. Kena feeling dan ada ilham baru impressive. Kekeke...alasan ye dak. Oklah biarlah aku menyudahkan minit aku, nanti aku sambung lagi. Mana tau, pas ni post Engrisshh balik!

News & Handbags Craveness

Salam,

Life continues as it should always be. And so do I.

Work. Kids. Families. Survival. Obligations. Responsibility.

And Alhamdulillah I still can smile till today. And upon this writing moment, I felt a huge relieve for that certain obligations has nearly come to an end. Oh news? I have news to spread. Not only one but plenty.

I bought a house (Hehe..I love repeating this one). The final stage is just around the corner. Laywer will deal with former bank of the vendor. Then, the payment will be released to the bank. The vendor also will get the money and so on... I just have to pay my final payment on legal thing and the purchase will sealed! I've had a discussion with the vendor on the moving plan. By latest, end of July will be the time to move. And I just hope everything will be smooth. (Does it sound like a poem?)

My office will be moving to Bdr Sri Permaisuri, Cheras by next month. Opss, the outlet will be open first, and 1 week delayed for the office part. Since the renovation for the 1st floor office had just started, other colleagues will have to stay at Kajang first. I'll be traveling alone with my hubby. That's the main menu on my childish mind. I love hanging out with him even for work.

My company will be opening an yogurt ice cream outlet known as Tutti Frutti. I tasted the ice cream before. Twice and have to admit they are yummiest! And the most important, it's healthy.

I'll be a manager. Outlet Manager. It's totally big. For me since I only did admin stuff before and workloads are definitely not tricky as engineer or technical post. Thanks to my boss for upgrading me. Giving me an opportunity to play a new role. And also trust my ability. One thing for sure is salary increase. Yaay! Actually I'm quite nervous about this one. I didn't have a solid experience especially on retail but I did have a bit knowledge on the surface about how this thing will be going likely. Wish me luck!

I bought a Coach Bag. From Kristin Collection. And a Coach Wristlet. OMG I sounds so greedy! This is the first time I bought an expensive handbag and I feel quite hesitation about the decision. Reason, it's expensive. But, another few reasons have overtaken the first reason made me shape my mind. Hehe.. result? I am so happy, satisfied and feel renew. See the pic for the handbag and wristlet. 

I don't have a picture of me carrying this bag because I feel shy. Even after received the bag, I kept them in the dust bag until the right time came. But, now everyday I carry them. Wristlet have a similar function as purse or wallet. Although it's slightly bigger than normal size, I am happy. My previous purse is very masculine yet very convenience for me to hand carry without handbag.  But, it's already worn out. It's time for a change. Thanks to HandbagHonco for providing branded stuff at cheaper price.

Ok, those are all the news. Nothing more, nothing less.

Oh by the way, my sister in law will be accompanying her parent in law to London. Her sister in law is going to do her master there. The whole family is going for 2 weeks and it's such a pleasure to hear their trip plan. Paris is one of their destinations. Paid Trip! who doesn't want? So, after browsing along the Longchamp website, I already have a list to tag along. Not so much but cost me quite a cash. Never mind. I still have 2 months to save money on that. Before pen off, I just love to post a pic on one of my list. 

I like rich red! It's a LONGCHAMP PLANETES SHOPPER.

6 Years of Marriage

It's only 6 but it means a lot. Sum of 365 days times 6 equal to 2190 days of lingering in each others' good & bad things. Congrats to us for surviving the whole 6 years without a huge fight, deep hatred or even being emotionally hurt. We live happily to how we define the happiness in our own term. I love my husband so much to the extend that sometimes I couldn't express the feeling daringly to his face. Deeply, only God knows. 

I didn't take too much time to realize that my husband was the one for me and he still is now. The way he present his humbleness and how he treat elderly intrigued me very much. Obviously, that will be the person I want to spend my life with. Who is not only understand the word respect but doing it as well. Our relationship have not drained complication, tears or anger. Indeed, not so many. We always take steps to cherish each other as much as we can afford. True, there were time when we disagree on some issues but it wouldn't be dragged longer as we know how to end it.

He's only the same person I knew before we married, and yet he never change. Only that he becomes more lovable, caring & very family man. He loves his sons very much that I never see any man could ever give that love before. Please, I wouldn't mention my late father for example as he's definitely fall on other special category. I love the way my husband shows his tenderly love toward them. Sometimes, he's a resemblance of another kid in our family when it comes to play time with my sons. And I bet most kids love that!

It's tomorrow.
As I continue writing this, my heart is racing with the fact that I have been with him for 6 years. Legally. And I hope we will be together for another years to come until our last breath. I don't have any plan to celebrate our anniversary but perhaps 2 slices of red velvet cake may be enough to describe the red flame of our marriage.  With 2 kids definitely.

Happy Anniversary to us!

On Life Changing

I've turned my life, my family life to another extent when I decided to move to where I live now. From quite a remote area, we have evolved into more friendly neighborhood where daily supplies are accessible yet very near to you. I won't feel guilty if I can tell flaws that we faced during our time at Rawang.

It's an apartment. There's nothing wrong with a 5-storey building that everybody calls home. I love my apartment at Bandar Tasik Puteri. It's our first property ever so to speak. Actually, it's my hubby. But, I guess I'm allowed to take part as co-owner. After my contract was over with Siemens, we couldn't afford to pay rental and at the same time monthly installment for the apartment itself. It was my idea to move. We have good neighbors around. The population was countable by fingers as too many homes were left abandoned for various reasons. It was so quiet there when night appears. As a temporary housewife, taking care 2 months old son alone with only few people around your neighborhood was very challenging. Hubby's workplace was at Shah Alam and it took him an hour or two to either reach office or home. I felt like ages waiting my hero to come back to our embrace. Farihin was filled with so much love and care I could provide 24 hours. I watched him grow with my own eyes until I finally recruited by a construction company at Puchong. 

Yes, it was Rawang-Puchong-Shah Alam. Most of our friends said we're crazy to be part of the long-journey-like-hell to our workplace. And guess what? We rode. A 1996 Kriss (if i'm not mistaken). We seriously broke our pocket if we travel by car. So many things happened during the process. Getting summon from the police for not using motorcycle lane. Flat tyre was countless. Nearly got into an accident. Soaked in a damn heavy rain. But, we survived. Syukur Alhamdulillah for the bless we have been granted. Then, we travel back by car after it's installed with NGV. We invested in big amount, but we saved a lot. We tried every and each routes that can help us save toll cost. Even though it means waking up as early as 5.30am. We started at dusk and returned at dawn. There were times when I burst my tears on the corner of my own desk at office, thinking of my lil boy. I didn't get to see him for almost 13 hours a day. Because we need to work to live.

The special thing about living in BTP is after you've been burdened with those workloads in office, compulsory traffic jam around KL, is quietness. It's like you're at your most peaceful world. It's the best part. But, you surely need to travel very far for Tesco or Carrefour. Let alone big shopping complex like Jusco or Parkson. The neareast you have for groceries grab is almost 10-15 kilos. I guess. Still, BTP has mini markets @ Kedai Aceh. You can buy as much as supplies to stock up kitchen but when you park your car. Heads up and knowing how many steps you need to climb, things always end up with fighting. Hehehe...pathetic isn't? 

Now, after 3 years living high sky we are so grateful to get a house for rental. Moving to Kajang is absolutely the hardest yet very right decision I've ever made. I was given only a week to find a rental house, packing up, hiring a mover, looking for babysitter/nursery and so on. ONE WEEK. But, Allah SWT showed me the way. Smooth one. The best thing, personally to me after 1 month we moved, I was pregnant. Good things happened one after another. But, the endless happiness He granted to me made me pay with my tears. He took my father away. I accepted the fitrah and I accepted that I am now fatherless. And Allah SWT is Powerful toward Everything. 

I am very convenient now with the way I live. Facilities like school, shop, market, gas station and etch are easy within my reach. I actually left out my office. Distance only 300 metres from my house. It's true. When you have so much comfort, you may resist to go over the edge for you worry the comfort you enjoy will not last. It happens to me as I speak. It is the reason that drag me and husband to seek our own house in this particular area. We finally found our home. In Kajang. Instead of living near northern previously, I noticed that we actually very much headed toward southern area. What can I say, God has plan for all of us. For now, I love everything happens to me at the moment.


As my boss spread the news that we probably (or may I say solidly confirm) move to our new office at Bandar Sri Permaisuri, Cheras; I still overwhelm with how I managed to grab my dream house. Definitely we'll stay here for maybe another 10 years. And my office? Did I tell you that my husband work in the same area? 5 minutes distance by car perhaps from my new office. I can't stand to put another grinning toward this entire post. We're destined to be in each other's aura. We're going to travel together again. It's the sweetest thing I really look forward to.

I Own A House

Well, I would say it's a super extreme joy to just write the title. Yay!!!!!!!!

Syukur Alhamdulillah for all the gifts, prosperity, rezeki, bless and not forgetting hardship & torn milestones He granted for us. All those mileage gave us an experience and true feeling that God; Allah SWT would never test His slaves to what they can bear. I myself hereby admit we never go the hardest part of life in this world. Ever. Yet. And I am too much grateful for that. Syukran Jazilan Ya Allah...

We finally own our first house. Despite the fact that we actually had an apartment in Rawang. This is totally different. H.O.U.S.E. Landed, gated and double storey.  And it's beautiful. I won't speak so much to why we picked this house. Even it's a sub-sale purchase, we satisfied. I might just let the pictures speak.

This is the front view of the house. The former owner already did some renovation works with the porch. Full tiles, sliding door and the partition area.

 Front door entrance. Don't judge the furniture. They don't belong to me for sure.

The living room. It's small but seems comfortable and roomy for our family.

See the combination between wall board with the mirror on the other side. It makes the space spacious and I like the idea so much.

The built up for this house is slightly smaller than usual which is 18x65 instead of 20x70. There was a small room before here and the former owner, brilliantly turned that unpractical room to this small & cozy dining room.

I don't know why I capture this pic. It's only a sink & wash basin where you can see the neighbor's house at the back. Wait until you see the most part that I nearly going crazy to get this house.

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! It's the white solid-top kitchen cabinet complete with hob,  hood & built-in oven that mesmerized me. I love the color, the combination. Everything. Funny isn't? I only fell in love with the kitchen area that made me want the whole house. And now I can smile to my ear because every pictures you see is mine now. Not officially but will be.

It's quite tricky when you decided to buy a sub-sale house but they are worth more to you personally when you get this kind. I don't need to spend further on renovation as I feel they are enough already. Probably I only require few new things that I still can decide whether I should or I shouldn't. Easy.

I couldn't say more. I'm just a happy person today.

Vacation & Birthday Celebration

It's quite some time that I ignored my dear blog. I don't intend to be one of those listed bloggers in mag such as In Trend or whatsoever. If I just happen to have some space to write, I will do. It's not everyday work I should submit definitely.

It's the initial of April 2011. How time flies... Firas now is already reach his 7 months old. He's so cheeky, cute lil boy who didn't give me much problem in his upbringing. Maybe it's too early to conclude but during first 6 months, he's so easy to handle. Thank to Allah SWT. Remember my last entry of how he managed to roll over? He's now on crawling stage. He's probably will take his first step before his first birthday, I guess. But who knows...

I just came back from a vacation. Not a luxury 5-star paid vacation, but I'd like to call it a family vacation. I always want to have a private vacation alias honeymoon where only me and my husband involved. Only us. However, planning on this love-vacation usually end up going with your kids. I don't know others. But, I'm dying for our private time without our kids. And at the same time, I have this feeling of leaving them with granny. I feel guilty. Hehe..should I be feeling that? I know. I definitely will have my moment someday and I look forward for that. Badly.

So, this family vacation went to Kuantan, Pahang. We actually were entraped to join this membership of vacation club. Now that we had our entitlement to expire very soon, we decided to finish it off. And Kuantan was our choice. Why? Swiss Garden Resort & Spa Kuantan is one of the best hotels i've stayed. The location is not really far from the uptown. Facilities provided are good and what I love the most is their games room/tupai kids club. Entertainment for both parent & kid. Everything's there. The beach is nice & yet private. The food is quite delicious. Although our entitlement does not come with breakfast, but I was presented with an offer of having breakfast buffet at only rm40 for 2 adults & 2 kids. We had our lunch usually from outside as well as dinner. I always crave to go to their Samsara Spa to having the whole body treatment from massage, milk/mud bath, hair treatment and all that. Next time perhaps.

The best thing when you go a vacation with family is to see joy and fun from your child's face. Farihin was clearly had fun & enjoy the trip exactly the way he wanted it to happen. Swimming pool is the ultimate attention there and he couldn't resist to jump in it anytime. He's such an excited kid and we understand. Firas? :-D  Pictures speak louder than words.

Hehe...what a bless to see them this way. I love them so much.

Oh yes, I also went to boutique Zleqha to collect my dress. I fell in love with the zobeida dress. It's white and smooth looking. Pleated and have buttons from top to bottom. So beautiful. Since I'm a plus size, buying ready made is impossible. I'm lucky to have the owner, Kak Lin was able to take order. She's actually an architechtural's grad from State and love fashion so much. She's inspired to design for muslimah contemporary clothes as a statement that Muslim can also dress fashionably and at the same time remain in modesty. Trust me, all the collections are awesome. My jaw dropped to the floor (exaggerating) when witness the designs in live. My wildest dream is to grab the whole summer, spring, winter collections but I know that would be financially-impossible. Haha...had to eat salty fish after that. So, those who have family - vacation is not something you really need but personally, why not? It doesn't need to be expensive and burden your pocket. A one day trip or one night stay is enough to have quality time out of your comfort boundary.

Today is my husband's 32th birthday. Know what? I pretended to forget his birthday. I didn't verbally wish him. Only on facebook that he may not notice at all. The thing is, I really my beloved's special day. This year, I don't buy any gift for him. I will later. Since I got nice birthday present so it's not fair for him. What I love to do is a surprise that involved only 4 of us (now 4 after Firas was born). So, lunch time I had this help from friend to buy a cake for my husband. It's a cheese cake with durian and vanilla filling from Secret Recipe. I know how much he loves durian. I abandon old boring typical chocolate cake. I also may blow some ballons and make a birthday banner on my own. I want him to be surprised and most of all; HAPPY. Wish me luck.

I need to go for the preparation. Bye.

 

Firas Has Finally Rolled Over

I was relieved to see finally this cute lil boy has rolled over after like almost a month's attempt. Those tiny setback about his heavy butt at last defeated by his willingness to see world around more clearly. Congrats Firas! Kudos to you...

 

This entry is primarily about Firas being my 2nd son since there's no specific milestones of his existence recorded here. I wish those memories of having him in my belly almost 10 months exact & the moment of delivering him are still well-stored in my brain-processor.

  

The first difference I figured out when my pregnancy was confirmed at 6 weeks was my appetite. I didn't eat like I starved out my ass off. I was very calm yet excited since my 1st son, Farihin reached his 4th yr. Farihin's gonna have a sibling!! Yaay... Actually, we expected it as we planned to have a 2nd baby. I deeply wanted a baby girl, of course. But, honestly I didn't care at all. If Allah granted us a girl, it's like a bonus. If it's boy, it's a double bonus. We'd have a new baby anyway, and Farihin would get a great companion by having a brother. 

 

The thing was, I had this damn morning sickness so badly. Four months long. I never had any before. Probably just a mild dizziness when I sit or stand too long. But, this time it was totally different. I don't like ice cream (Baskin Robbin that most of the time, I hardly resist), I can't drink milk/soy bean (yucck!!). I definitely would throw up after meal especially if the food was spicy. I easily get this dizziness even when I didn't do nothing. I woke up freshly in the morning with a full spirit, head to the bathroom for a nice cold shower and after got dressed up - tingggg, I felt helpless, downright motivated. Those dizzy really got me killed. I finished my AL before time. I was so frustrated that my work performance became worst by then. 


I also put on weight half less that my first pregnancy experience. Imagine, I gained almost 25 kilos during Farihin, but with Firas it's more less around 11-12 kilos. It's just that, I already overweight. It doesn't matter at all. My enthusiasm on practicing those tips for having a smooth & silky skin baby gone nowhere. I only consumed those medicines given by the clinic particularly those folid acids & obimin plus. During 7 months, I have taken like 6-7 sachets of Berrygen (collagen drink from Beauty Nature @ Tupperware) just to fulfill the routines. My appearance? Totally sucks. I wore lipstick 1 out from 100 days. Sometimes my clothes were crumpled and I didn't even notice them. My skin also went darker than before. Simply said, I was at my great ugliness that time.


I preferred not to mention things happened during my 37 weeks to where I'll have my tears on my cheek. Finito. However, I'd love to tell few things happened when my pregnancy was nearly due time. As previous, I never experience any sign of contraction @ broken water @ bleeding. N.E.V.E.R. It's the headache that bring me to visit a Hospital before due. Assuming that could be the sign of pre-clampsia (high BP during pregnancy), husband drove me to Hospital Selayang. I was 39 weeks 4 days, I guess. The most scariest moment when you're in the middle of examination room, the Dr asked "please take off your panties"or whatsoever you call them. Oh. My.God. I hated it badly. The call it, check cervix for dilation where the Gynae will put through his/her finger into your female organ to help determine if the labor may start soon. I had a headache remember? Not a contraction. But, admitting that they are the doctors, I pretended to allow whatever they want to do. The fun part is I'd love to hear doctors' elaboration. Dilate, 1 on 10 bla bla... 1cm tight...bla blah... They sounds so expert, weren't they? As a result, my BP was ok and it turned out I was 100% healthy. Labor won't start soon as there was not dilation, only 1cm perhaps. So, I went back.


Then next night, I was supposed to do a BP monitor since my blood pressure remained at borderline after my father passed away. See, what's the dangerous thing of having high BP during your 3rd trimester is the possibility of suffering from pre-clampsia. It's a medical condition in which hypertension arises in pregnancy known as the most common of the dangerous pregnancy complication. It affects both the mother and unborn child. Scary isn't? In some cases, where it's severe - it's a life-threatening condition to both. It was after shower, that I fell on my  buttock badly on the bathroom floor. So bad that I had nothing to say. Just a pain around my thighs. My husband screamed, he failed to grab my hand. The cause was I slipped my steps on the ram at the bathroom door. Suddenly, there's no movement at all in my belly. I was afraid like hell and started to cry. We then went to 3 clinics. Three okay? But none of them able to do scanning. To my horror, the last doc said she afraid there might be a placenta abruption where the placenta lining has separated from the uterus (uri tercabut) because of the fall. Finally, we decided to go to the hospital again. Alhamdulillah, on our way to the hospital the baby (Firas) has started to move again. Scan result showed no harm and I was so relieved/grateful.

I was planned to get admitted for induce on the 3rd Sept but I gave birth to Firas on 5th September instead of on 4th (EDD). Not much trouble occurred in labor room as I was so determined to go through a vaginal birth. Not C-Sect anymore. Guess what? I was successful all the way with the help from my husband & a nice nurse that I didn't know her name. Firas came out with 3.55kg weight. Safe and sound with only a slight problem to breath. He hardly cried when I saw him between my legs first time ever. So, the doctor hurried to the nursery to examine his condition. He's back to my arm adorably fine. All the pains gone. With only one look at those tiny little baby in your embrace. I sank in an awe (like a daydreaming).  I immediately call him Firas as that's the ultimate name chosen if I had a boy.

 

 

So, here are pic of Firas. See the difference? The first pic was from the day he was born with blanket wrapped around him. Next to it, the pic my friend snapped when we went over her house on 23 Jan 2011. As the 2nd pic is  after he's been shaved on his head (less than 1 month old) with a pic we took at Alamanda on 20th Jan 2011. He's a bombshell, isn't he? I fell in love with my own blood cause he looks so cute with that bib. I would go through a 10 times pregnancy thing over this handsome boy. But, that's not gonna happen in real. Those family thing, we have plan on our own.  :-p

Here are my motivation story to pregnant ladies out there who wish to go for vaginal birth after cesarean experience:

- always positively think that you'll be able to give birth normally not by operation

- for Muslim, pray in your solat as hard as you can. I woke up few times in the middle of midnight to perform solat & pray that Allah grant my wish.

- drink lots of water.
- learn how to breath and push the right way.

- if possible, tell your mid-wife/nurse that you want to 'by hook or by crook' deliver your baby normally and ask for her support when you're in labor ( Well, I personally did this. Spontaneously in the labor room).

So, as Firas already did his first roll over, I look forward to see more his physical achievement. Soon when he gets his first crawl, I'll promise to tell the story about it.

Maher Zain & Reading...

Ouchh...what a bad luck today. I fell on my knee. It hurts...really. Not sure what happened exactly. I guess I took a wrong step on my way during walking Lil Farihin to kindergarten. Luckily hubby's the one who hold Firas. Otherwise, I can't imagine how worst it could be.

What to tell about? Maher Zain? I love his songs. Though I can only name few of them. But what I love most about him is how he brought music spiritually full with message. Also, an innovative arrangement that combined r&b, pop and Arabic music. Nice to listen to. Am not really a die hard fan of Maher Zain but to be honest, this guy is really opening wide interest from public to his own music. Malaysia particularly is having huge crowd of his fans. His debut - Thank You Allah is a major breakthrough success that reached no 1 spot in Amazon.com World Music Chat (credit: wikipedia). Maher Zain will be performing his concert @ Stadium Malawati, Shah Alam in February. I took this chance to witness the Lebanese Origin myself on 26th Feb with hubby. We're not really into concert/show thingy, but this time I need to take different approach with our quality time together. And tadaa...I already bought the tix. Yaay!!

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So, February... I'm gonna have a date with Mr Husband. Can't wait!

Oh well, I went to Alamanda yesterday. Another excuse to spend a public holiday outside. Usually, we go to Alamanda during weekdays after Maghrib. If the journey takes about 20 minutes or less from home, we only have around 1 hour for dinner @ window shopping. Such a short time. So, again we take chance to go on a daylight, after Zuhur to be specific. I bet there would be one-to-one fight for parking spot and I was true all the way. It's a weekday off remember? We managed to get a parking but end up waiting around 10 minutes because the pakcik driver forgot to pay his parking ticket. Don't worry, we maintained our sweet smile for we know, if we left ~ it would cost us another wasted minutes.

One thing about being in a complex with either MPH @ Popular bookstore, I failed almost every time not to enter it. At least, to buy books. Or a book. Hehehe.. singular means a lot than plural to my husband's point of view. Because they also differentiate on how many RM you spend for a book rather than books. Don't worry about that. All on my burden for having this hobby; reading. I have bought 3 books previously. They were all romance of course, in Malay. So this time, I chose pieces from Nicholas Spark & Sophie Kinsella. Reason being, Safe Heaven from Spark has just released as well as Mini Shopaholic from Kinsella. As these books are newly out, I know they won't frustrate me. Their way of putting imagination into words are definitely either burst me into tears or laughter. I just don't know when I'm going to start into it. I hope very soon. =)

Hmm...there's Maher Zain in Feb & those books for brain enjoyment anytime. I love my life!

By the way, Firas has already started with solid food. I put one spoon to mix with the bottle instead of feeding him. He seems ok and I can see that clearly. 

Next time, next post ok. Bye.

Dream Bags

I love handbags, but I always have 1 bag at a time. Pathetic isn't?

Recently, I bought 1 handbag (Charles & Keith), 1 satchel (Calvin Klein) & 1 tote (LV) as an excuse to compensate my suffer during confinement. Very new me. Hehehe... 

I never buy designer's handbag though I crave for them so much. Ahh...don't get me wrong with those LV brand tote. It's a replica. I can't afford to pay nearly RM3k just for a nice Neverfull MM tote. It's way cheaper but still it looks exactly like a real one (that's why they call it replica). But, if you touch it you just know it's not original. No worry, I can live with it as long as all my belongings would be safe in there.

However, I keep falling in love with COACH's legacy these days. Oh my my... there are few items from Coach I would love to grab if I have extra extra &&&&.... here are my latest fave & craziness.

Oh, so in love with these handbags. My most fave is COLETTE CANVAS SIGNATURE STRIPE CARRYALL because the grey fabric lining is sooooo beautiful. The multicolor stripe design from poppy also attempted my purse. Each cost me around RM1k onward. Hohoho!!! I need to save some money or could I say lots of money to buy all these. Hey, in case I can get only one, I probably end up creating a poll between Colette @ Stripe Poppy. They are gorgeous indeed. I'll take myself into my own mission from there - Pick the best one! Even writing this, I have a headache already. Hahahah...

 
I wanna sleep & dream right now... zzzzzzzzzz (colette? poppy? maggie?....errr RM? USD?)

 

Sweet Dream! 

Lil Farihin

I always think it is hard to educate your children with daily practical life. I mean not that it's the hardest thing in the world since kids usually take orders and execute them as long as it simple or understandable. This is because most kids have their own resistance. However, if you have this faith that your children will obey your instruction particularly, the result is unbelievable.

I have one boy previously, until it become two now. This lil Farihin is really turning my life into a new level since he was born 5 yrs ago. I didn't have an experience handling lil boy since I am the youngest daughter in family though I have 2 brothers after me. It's always a privilege to me since I have 4 big sisters to handle those kind of responsibilities. Surely, I was not a spoil kid either. So, when Farihin appeared in our life ~ I took the challenge to prove that I'm qualified to be a good mother. I did. I also did few mistakes during his upbringing that most parent sometimes do. Please don't count on scolding & yelling part. Also, the part of me splurging him with toys & clothes. :-)

5 years... I can see now that part of my way of teaching has shown the result. A positive one, I guess. I don't want to elaborate those good things we see in him. Things that I only want to share with my husband. It's our blend recipe of education, not an academic one but with hope this lil Farihin will bring the manner through his life forever.

Last night, this lazy mummy didn't cook. A usual excuse, tired & rushing.So, husband went to buy 'lauk' on his way back home. Lil Farihin was super hungry and asked dinner. I always ask him whether he preferred to eat on his own or mummy to feed him. He said he wanted to have meal by himself. Alright... He managed to finish 2 plates & I was not surprised by his appetite recently. Good one. I dozed off and slept early, not knowing what happen next. This morning, when I woke up and the thought of cleaning the sink suddenly pop up, search for Farihin's plate had came to my mind. I used to remind him, put the plate in the sink after he's done with eating. There were 3 dirty plates in the sink, neither belong to Farihin. I couldn't find it everywhere. I was curious. Where the hell this kid threw his plate? To my surprise, I saw his. On the plate rack. Clean. OMG...I feel moved. He washed his own plate (I verified this with hubby, in case he's the one doing that). Yes, Farihin washed his own plate... :-) I think that's so sweet for a 5 yrs boy. I never ask him to do it. Never at once. He did on his own willing.

Maybe people think I'm overreact but hey, this is my kid and I'm extremely happy to know what he can do. Trust me, he pleased me so much that today is the best day in January 2011.

- Luv Farihin so much & Luv Firas so much too -

- Daddy @ Hubby? Luv u to no end. :p

Tata!

Meeting Old Friends..

Well, what i said about being busy? I'm not at the moment. So, love to write down something on long lost friend.

It happened last week. One by one old friend from former secondary school turned up in Facebook. Reconnect one by one by creating a group and suddenly the page became so alive. Hundred comments were shared making the group wall merrier. Hehe... I love meeting old friends be it virtually or physically. Platform for R.E.M.I.N.I.S.C.I.N.G...  =p

I didn't manage to join much in their conversation @ discussion @ wall post because of errands in the office. But, still making my effort to know how's their life going on currently and what most of them are doing for living.

I started my secondary on 1993. Didn't get a good result for my UPSR, so continued at ordinary school around our neighborhood. I joined SM Convent Bt Mertajam for 1 month before transferred to a newly-built school @ Permatang Rawa. Not so happy with the transfer stuff, but then I loved SMPR  a lot more later. It's a school with sweet memories, good friends and good teachers too. Now, the group has it's own goal. The search of Ex-SMPRers has begin... I forgot how I used to have multiracial friends back then. Shame on me...

Perhaps, this Facebook isn't bad at all as what some people mumble about. It depends on how we plan to use it. And I plan to meet my old friends. May be we can have a cup of coffee while doing a casual conversation about life, etc. Till next post!

Love Love Love...

2011 Resolution

Here comes 2011. It's already mid-Jan when I wrote this 1st post of mine, it's not too late to list out my resolutions for another year of my life. Perhaps, by doing this I would have the drive to fulfill them. Insya Allah.

Resolution

- to become more discipline of being a true Muslim and to perform shalat on time. (no more delay)

- to give in everything that I can offer as a wife, a mom, a daughter/in law, employee & a friend

- to start reading more academical & inspirational stuff and gain as much as knowledge I can

- to reduce late sleeping habit & waking up on time by alarm (no snoozing anymore) :p

Tadaa...those are 4 out of tonnes of resolutions I dare to reveal. For the rest, I keep for myself on the ground that I may not able to fulfill them all. 

So, i guess that's it for an introductory post. Nothing interesting to enlighten at the moment as I also have works to do. Remember, resolution no 1? As an employee... (grinning).

Till then, have a nice day!!